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    Where's My Little Girl?

    I had to come to terms with my daughter's growing independence.

    by Maggie Kvalsvik*

    coming to terms with your daughter moving to collegeAs my husband, Ben, and I drove the three hours to our daughter Hannah's campus to pick her up for fall break, I wondered what—if any—changes I'd notice in the daughter we'd left behind six weeks earlier. As I parked in front of her dorm, I caught sight of a smiling, bandanna-swathed Hannah coming toward our car toting her green laundry basket brimming with dirty clothes. Then my eyes detected something else green—lime green. And it wasn't spilling out of her laundry basket. No, this lime green thing was sprouting from Hannah's right eyebrow!

    Within the few short weeks Hannah had been away at school, she'd pierced her eyebrow and now sported a ring with a bright green bead on it. While getting an eyebrow ring was hardly the end of the world, it was also something I never thought Hannah would do. Shock, dismay and disappointment coursed through me—reactions I certainly hadn't planned on experiencing during our first time together since August. After a quick hug, I managed to sputter, "What's up with that thing in your eyebrow?"

    "Oh, that," Hannah said casually as she loaded her duffel and laundry basket into the car. "A girl down the hall in my dorm and I decided to do it together. You should be glad, Mom," she added, reading my expression. "At least I didn't get a nose ring."

    The next thing I knew, I said some things I probably shouldn't have, such as how I thought it looked ridiculous, that it was a waste of money and what in the world was she thinking?

    Friends at church reminded me that this frustrating push-and- pull over independence was part of the natural process of redefining our parent-child relationship.

    "Mom, you forget I'm 18. I don't need your permission anymore."

    There it was: An undeniable declaration of independence that marked a change in our relationship. Even worse, it came with a nonverbal reminder to stare back at me each time I looked into Hannah's face. The ride home was subdued, and as we sailed down the highway, I suddenly felt like Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz. We weren't in Kansas anymore. The familiar parameters of our parent-teen relationship—the ones we'd hashed out during Hannah's high school years—were suddenly up for renegotiation.

    Alien Abduction?

    The good news is my husband and I survived the eyebrow episode—and Hannah's freshman year of college. Once we recovered from our initial shock and discomfort over the ring, we actually had a great weekend with Hannah. By the time we drove her back to campus on Sunday night, we hardly noticed it.

    But there were other things about this weird transition time that were harder to adjust to, things that made me want to scream: "Have aliens abducted my kid?"

    For instance, I was stunned during Hannah's first weekend home when she actually volunteered to clear the dinner table, unload the dishwasher and clean up the leftovers—without my asking. This was not the teen I remembered from high school. Was it guilt over her eyebrow ring? Was it the sheer joy of having a home-cooked meal after weeks of dining-hall eating? I didn't waste too much time analyzing the motivation behind Hannah's newfound eagerness to pitch in. I simply enjoyed it.

    But I learned never to assume this was the new status quo. I discovered things could change in a New York minute if Hannah felt her independence called into question. She'd clam up or act put upon.

    For example, it snowed like crazy over Hannah's Christmas break, and Ben and I were tired of battling the blizzard. Hannah to the rescue, right? After all, she'd spent her days home sleeping in till noon, e-mailing friends, raiding the refrigerator and channel surfing from the family-room sofa. "Hannah, please shovel the driveway for us."

    I pray for the maturity I require to love her, understand her and be the kind of parent she needs most at this point in her life.